I. Still. Write. Book One.

I began my journal project earlier this week, making some pretty cool looking entries. My explorations this week took my to thinking about family, perversion, procrastination, and love….as always…. IMG_0319-1



A very wise man once asked me, “Are you going to talk about it? Or are you going to BE about?” This has become a mantra of mine recently. I sit on my couch wishing I was out with friends or dreaming of being a writer or craving homemade pesto, when the whole time I have the power to get up and go get what I want.





I spend so much time thinking about what I’m going to doing (or what I HAVE to do), that it only retards my progress. I am my own worst enemy. I can provide myself with what I want and yet I am the one who prohibits my movement.



So this week if I didn’t happen to make it to the gym everyday, I sat down and worked on my art. How your exercise out what you need to purge can be expressed in a variety of different ways. Each one providing different, though still satisfying and effective, results.



So I’m getting better. I’m coming out of my shell creatively, socially, and physically. I’ve spent the better part of the last year grieving, filled with sadness and sedentary solace. I feel like I’m waking up. And I feel happy.


I’ve been disappointed with people, people I genuinely like and have interest in. It’s a shame how some people treat one another. My sister and I were just talking the other day about eradicating the bad people from your life. Why would you not want to surround yourself with good people? Why do you not want to strive to be good yourself?


Sexy Slow Jams: STFT

I have loved sexy slow jams for as long as I can remember. Listening to Keith Sweat and Color Me Badd on Power 98.9, singing “Don’t go chasing waterfalls…” while playing Barbies in the basement,I have always enjoyed R&B. I had forgotten about some of these songs, though, until I started working at Bent River; the cook on Sundays had Sexy Slow Jam Sundays and played classics from my childhood.

A few months ago I put a post up on Facebook, asking my friends to contribute to a list of sexy songs, I wanted to compile a master list of the best sexy songs and I wanted to make a mix tape.

MixtapeSo I complied a long list of great tunes, including but not limited to:

Ginuwine – Pony

Chris Issac – Wicked Games

Nobody- Keith Sweat

Nice & Slow- Usher

Freak Me- Silk

Knockn’ da boots- H town

Red light special- TLC

Too Close- Next

I Wanna Sex You Up- Color Me Bad

Come and Talk to me- Jodeci

Sailing – Christopher Cross

Return of the Mack – Mark Morrison

No Ordinary Love – Sade

Come Back and Stay – Paul Young

Every Time You Go Away – Paul Young

Slave to Love – Bryan Ferry

Untitled (How Does it Feel) – D’Angelo

Anywhere – 112

Any Time, Any Place – Janet

Unchained Melody – Righteous Brothers

Hungry Eyes – Eric Carmen

Right Here Waiting – Richard Marx

Maxwell – Ascention

Aaliyah – Are you That Somebody

Kelly – don’t Put me Out

D-Angelo – Feel Like Makin’ Love

Black Street – No Diggity

Shai – If I ever Fall

Let’s Stay Together/ So Tired of Being Alone – Al Green

These Arms of Mine -Otis Redding

Let’s Get It On -Marvin Gaye

Force M.Ds- Tender Love

Zap and Roger- I Want to Be Your Man

Lenny Kravitz- All I Ever Wanted

George Michael- Father Figure

But it was much, much too long for my mission.

See I discovered awhile back that Ben Crabb, the gentleman behind Turn Table Tuesdays at RIBCO and an employee of Ragged Records, also has a radio show on KALA-FM Radio, 88.5, out of St. Ambrose University. On Fridays at midnight and Saturdays at noon, he plays mix tapes people send him. I was hooked as soon as I heard; I loved making mix tapes as a young girl and still keep it up with CD’s today, so I had my mission set.

I asked him if there were any time restrictions and he said,

“It’s got to be 60 minutes.”

My response: “I have a two and a half hour long play list. And that doesn’t include a few other songs I wanted to add.”

“I’ll give you two parts, 120 minutes max.”



So I’ve narrowed down the list quite a bit to stay within the 120 minute parameter. Not every song that some would like to see is on here, but honestly, I don’t care. If you want a different sexy slow jam list, then you make one. Because I loved this music growing up I wanted my very favorites to be all together in one place. So while some may think its weird that “Knockin’ Da Boots” isn’t on there, it’s because I’ve never really dug into that song that way I have with these.

The final list:

  1. Ginuwine – Pony
  2. Giving Him Something He Can Feel – En Vogue
  3. Nice & Slow – Usher
  4. Ascension (Don’t Ever Wonder) – Maxwell
  5. Don’t Leave Me – Blackstreet
  6. No Ordinary Love – Sade
  7. I Want Your Sex – George Michael
  8. Too Close – Next
  9. I Wanna Sex You Up – Color Me Badd
  10. Red Light Special – TLC
  11. Nobody – Keith Sweat
  12. Give In to Me – Michael Jackson
  13. Any Time, Any Place – Janet Jackson
  14. Wicked Game – Chris Issak
  15. If I Ever Fall In Love – Shai

Let me know if you want a copy of it. On CD, I only made one on cassette, and that belongs to Ben.

And if you were wondering, the true title is, “Sexy Slow Jams: Songs to Fuck To”.



Gentlemen of the Road – Waverly, Iowa – 2015

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I joined together with a band of 5 of my friends and we traveled into Waverly, Iowa, on Friday the 19th, drove out Sunday, the 21st, changed forever. This was not a music festival, it was a shared, communal experience with some of the best live music I’ve ever seen. The band Mumford & Son’s began these summer “Stopover” tours, where they pick several small towns across the country and spend a weekend alongside a line-up of other artists playing music. Check out this video about the 2015 tours, its awesome.

The definition of ‘stop over’ is a break in one’s journey. That is exactly what it felt like being in Waverly. All these people came together and paused for a brief, collected moment, to truly enjoy something special. The picture below are the thousands of tents off in the distance with the Waverly, Iowa, water tower in the background.


We arrived around noon and were directed to park in a giant field that was about two miles from where we’d be camping. We piled up all our stuff and made a the trek down to the tractor that took us to our actual camp site. Everyone was packed in tight but once the 6 of us got our tents and easy-up popped, we had a pretty nice little home base.

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After getting settled in, we rested for a couple of hours. It was incredibly hot out and getting all of our stuff moved and set up took quite a bit of energy. We sat and had some snacks and afternoon beers and relaxed until the afternoon sun set a bit. Once we felt recharged, we made the walk down to the Main Stage.



While there was quite a bit of walking the whole weekend long (things were quite spread out), it was a beautiful place.




After walking through this giant field, underneath a big Gentlemen of the Road Sign, through rows of flags, you came into this clearing where the stage was…



We got down to the stage around 4:30pm and checked out the lay of the land while waiting for the Very Best to begin. If any of our group ever wanted to venture off, we usually kept at least one person guarding our spot.

IMG_3515As the music progressed, we’d all grow a little closer, or wander off for a beer, but always meeting back together, always remembering that there’s safety in numbers.


Unfortunately I don’t have great night time photo capabilities so I didn’t capture too much in the evening hours. I had to snap this one of My Morning Jacket as they’ve been on my live show list for a long time and this was during my favorite song of theirs, “Wordless Chorus”. Listen to it!



After My Morning Jacket performed, there were more shows in the downtown area. However, we were all exhausted and decided to call it a night. I’d say I was asleep by 12:30 at the latest.


Below are pictures of the Gentlemen of the Road show that changed colors at night. It was pretty cool. I snapped those on our first night back during the walk back to camp.

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The next morning I awoke to chaos at 6:45am. A  severe summer storm was moving in and when I stepped out of my tent, the wind was blowing so much so that everyone’s priority was to tie everything down and make sure it didn’t blow away. Once all belongings were secured, our group split up: two guys ran into a nearby church that had a pancake breakfast and showers (they got the best deal out of any of us); the couple in our crew hopped on their bicycles and went to the Wartburg College Fieldhouse (pictures below), where an emergency shelter was being set up; I did what I’ve always done while camping, hole up in your tent and ride it out.

IMG_3537 IMG_3536The storm let up around noon and things really started to dry out and pick back up around 1pm. So we threw on our rain boots and headed to the down town area to check it out. It was a little bit of a jaunt, so you catch a bus down there.


You then follow the brightly colored streamers over a beautiful river to the fantastically adorable town of Waverly, Iowa.





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We didn’t spend too much time down town. There wasn’t any music during the day we wanted to see and most of the businesses were packed inside as everything was still wet and mucky on the outside from the morning’s storm. We did stumble into a sandwich joint called the Sub Shop where I purchased one of the best sandwiches I’ve had in my life.

IMG_3567After lunch we went back to camp and hung out until it was time to head back to the main stage for the evening’s shows. While doing so, there these two ground squirrels right in front of us eating potato chips and it was pretty cute.


Jenny Lewis was fantastic to see live. I’ve been a fan of Rilo Kiley for many years and loved her solo stuff too. I was psyched to hear “Silver Lining” live as well as “The Moneymaker” from  Under the Blacklight, a beautiful album. I enjoyed the new stuff she did too and look forward to spending more time listening to that.


Up next was The Flaming Lips, whether you like their music or not, they put on a fantastic live show with balloons and glitter and costumes and all sorts of silliness. I got to hear “Fight Test” and “Are You a Hypnotist?” From Yoshimi Battles the Pink Robots, my two favorite songs from that album. I was so very happy.

The balloon says “Fuck Yeah GOTR Waverly” in case you can’t read it.


Little mushrooms and rainbows came out when they played, “Do You Realize?” which tugged on my heart strings.


The final act of the evening, of the weekend, was Mumford & Sons. As the sun went down, the crowd waited patiently…

IMG_3598As I mentioned earlier, my camera at night sucks. But even if it was crystal clear, even if I was in the front row, no pictures and no words can truly capture and do justice the show that band put on that evening.

IMG_3607 They played many songs from their first two albums, “Babel”,I Will Wait”, and “Little Lion Man”. They sounded beautiful; Mumford & Son’s gets me the way the Beach Boys and the Dixie Chicks (yeah, I said it) get me. The multi-layering of voices and instruments, the precision and talent it truly takes, I am a sucker for a four-person harmony. But it was when they plugged in, went from acoustic to electric, that I was absolutely blown away. There has been a lot of skepticism surrounding their artistic evolution and, perhaps if you only ever listen to their new album, “Wilder Mind”, and you don’t experience any of it live, the skeptics may have a point. I believe it is because no recording can true capture the emotion that I saw those four gentlemen pour out into the world under the stars that night. It was incredible. They played in that field for over two hours and at the very end, they called all of the artists back out again and they sang this, and I was moved.

The show ended around 12:30 or so and, while there was more music down town again, we were all beat again. We headed back to camp and packed it in. We all got up around 6:30am the next day, packed up, and drove home.

Being at Gentlemen of the Road and seeing the music I did in that landscape amongst friends under the Iowa sky was one of the best times of my life. I am so grateful to have been able to experience such a fantastic time in my beloved state.


Iowa Bucket List

I was born and raised in the state of Iowa and I absolutely love it. I am a proud Iowan and Hawkeye Alum, earning my Bachelor’s of Art from the University of Iowa. Both my parents hail from here as well, my mother growing up on a farm outside of Ames and my father being from the Quad Cities. Both of my parents also love to travel, I suppose this is where I picked up my wanderlust from, if we every had any length of free time, we would adventure out into the country. While I’ve seen a lot in Iowa, there’s so much more to discover. I’m working on an Iowa Bucket List and checking things off. My goal is to document via pic each one I visit.

  • Strawberry Point – Home to the world’s largest fiberglass strawberry

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  • Madison County – Visit a Covered BridgeIMG_0115
  • The Grotto of the Redemption – a religious monument in West Bend
  • Crystal Lake – home to the largest bullhead fish
  • Burlington – I want to drive down Snake Alley, the most crooked street in the world
  • The world’s largest wooden nickel is right outside of Iowa City (how did I live there for 7 years and NOT KNOW!)
  • Cold Water Cave has the largest cliff in Iowa
  • Visit the Field of Dreams….I’ve never been….weird, huh?
  • Go to the Iowa State Fair
  • Hike the Loess Hills
  • Hang out in Pella
  • Revisit the Amana Colonies

The list will keep growing, this I know, and if you have any suggestions please contact me….The final mission of this whole idea is to visit all 99 counties in Iowa. I’ve got 49 down….50 to go….